the way i see it
I wrote this post at 2AM last night but tumblr thought it would be a ass and go offline thus me loosing my very long post. I’ll just condense everything.
I hung out with a girl. I’m smitten with her. People made fun of me for it. I was mad. I still am.
People don’t take me seriously. It only gets serious when I go off like a hopped lunatic on drugs. OH WAIT. I’m almost there. Doctor now said I can triple my dosage now. I shall follow through with it.
I was in the back yesterday looking at my tools and only thing I could think about was how I could use them against myself to kill myself. Saw through the throat. Drill to the head. Drink bleach. Screwdriver to the eye. And I remember thanking Leslie for the screwdriver in the eye idea. You know I asked you to stop posting stuff like that but hey, no one takes me seriously, just keep on posting. And correct me if I’m wrong but you even poked fun at me by saying “I just want you to know that when I saw this, I was thinking of you.” Thank you, so very much.
BUT NOW, I HAS A PLAN!
I call it, “Improvement for the Better Good.”
-I will begin phasing certain things out of my life.
-I will finish that office of mine, and sit in it.
-Use my savings to take my mom and sister to a vacation over Christmas.
-Spray something awesome with nitrogen and SMASH IT.
And first order of business when I turn 21 is to buy a hand gun. It’ll be highly patriotic of me.
And oh, I mentioned what’s stopping me from painting my office walls with my brain. Nothing really seeing as how no one takes me seriously.
